i call my self a free thinker!

finally i know where's my mind took me!
not an atheism and not a religious.
i am a free thinker!

last saturday, i found the answer where it goes.
sempet berasa orderan sepi waktu itu krn ga ada tmen asik buat malmingan jadinya pasrah aja buat di rumah ntn bola indo lwn thai. udah lmyn seru di rumah tp tiba2 bang dani ma bang yusuf ngajakin pegi ntn madagaskar 2 ( gue lg pengen bgt ntn tu film) ntn nya mid nite! jadi, buat nunggu tu film, gue ma mereka nongkrong di oh lala sarinah dan gue berani untuk bertanya apa yg membuat mereka yakin advent itu benar. Ngobrol banyak gue waktu itu dan gue mencurahkan apa yg gue rasa skrg2 ini.

They've been there dan itu membuat gue tersentak dan merasa cukup senang. Intinya, mereka bisa yakin begini karena awalnya mereka berusaha mengislamkan ibu mereka dan mereka terus mencari. Mencari sebuah pembenaran dari ini semua yg membuat adanya perbedaan itu. Karena pencarian itu, membuat mereka lari dari jalur dan singkat cerita mereka menjadi yakin bgt dgn yg mereka jalani sekarang.

Gue ga yakin gue bisa seperti mereka yg ujungnya mendapatkan jawaban itu. Dan karena mereka, gue tau bahwa pemikiran seperti yg gue rasakan adalah seorang yg FREE THINKER!

Perjalanan panjang tahun ini yg ngebuat gue makin deket ma ci dini ( kaka ketiga gue). Banyak permasalahan yg gue alamin ngebuat gue makin deket ma ci dini. Banyak kata dan pemikiran yg ngebuat gue makin deket ma ci dini dan skrg jadi deket banget. Bisa dibilang pemikiran kami kurang lebih sama dan apa yg kami rasakan kurang lebih sama. Thx to her that she always be here on time. Always.

Free thinker is not an atheism. I still believe in GOD of course but i just dont want disturbing Him with all of my problems and for now, i just too tired with all the rules He has made or the humans made. Life has a lot of philosophies. I google it and i found what a free thinker means and it all the same with i am thinking. This is a result for my searching and i searched it from yahoo. Check it out :

Free Thinkers

We are not a religion.We are a Philosophy and a Way of Life.
We come from all religions and all walks of life.
Some rich, some poor,Some highly educated, some only with our best intentions.

I hope all of you understand what is the meaning of what i'm thinking. This is what i'm thinking for now. I don't ask for your speech i just need your understanding cause sometimes we need to ask for what we're doing and what we're believing now.

Thanks for all refreshments and for GOD : " I'm sorry, Please forgive me. Maybe this is a wrong way but as You know, i'm still believing and i know You still there but i just need a break for awhile from many rules that You and Your believers has made."