being a jerk (read : judges)

Orang cmn bisanya ngomong ini, ngomong itu, tapi ga tau kenyataannya. itu dia sebab dari judul gue itu. mungkin emang gue yg being a jerk tapi gue memegang suatu prinsip yg diajarkan secara tdk lgsg oleh ibu gue, yaitu : kalo orang lagi down, jangan bikin dia semakin down tapi rangkul dia. gue cukup berterima kasih udah mengajarkan gue banyak hal tapi semua serasa kebohongan besar.

Ntah kenapa, sering bgt gue bertanya :
Dmn kodrat dari sebuah keluarga yg bisa memusuhi satu sama lain? dan lebih percaya dengan orglain?? Apakah itu sebuah kecapan yang salah? Tak ada arti sebuah kebersamaan yang lama.

She still down and they keep pushing and judging her. where they put their brain? she is their sister. Why cant they believe their one blood sister from the same mom and dad. It's just not fair for her. yea, she was the trouble maker but when she wants to be changed but nobody believe. Most of us maybe still or keep doing it on your family but please use your logic, what will happen if yourself on that situation?? Another problem is about judging. Banyak org dan termasuk gue secara sadar ato ga sadar sering banget yang namanya "ngejudge" tanpa pernah berpikir bagaimana kalau kita ada di posisi itu. Think before you speak or act. Just set your mind and feel free to say : "it's been years we're not staying in one roof so, just shut the hell up cause u don't know even 1 fucking mm about me!!". say that for all "judges". Don't let those judges disturb you. That's the rules.

Another problem is my very very bestfriend (read : another judge).
Her name is "O". She knows about all the problems include my issue. We have a very lot in commons. She isn't accept it and go with the wind like another jerk. She is gone and i try so hard to accept it. When i'm feel so down and the burden surrounds me, she left. So hard to awake from all the great memories with her. I just want to say thanks. You said you fail but for me bestfriend never fail. Sorry for the great issue. I just can't handle it so i decide to tell you. You said you're sorry, i forgive you but i can't make this relation like before. I still love you my sister and i will always do. I'm sorry to dispointing you. Thanks for good and bad memories. See you on the next life.